August 2011
4 posts
Dear you,
Amy Lin. I know it’s not my place to say, but you’re the prettiest girl in the room. You’ve got the biggest heart, brightest mind and the widest smile. But I can see further then skin deep. I can see those scars, whether they’re visible or not. Just remember that you’re beautiful. And you’re loved. You may be alone at times, but know that I am there for you. You...
Just Believe.
I don’t believe in much, I find my beliefs in something rather confusing. I wish I could believe in something without being questioned by both others and myself. However, if I could believe in something I’d believe that my head is seriously fucked - or that I am mentally distrubed.
The Peak and Pit.
I’m not the other girl. Amy and Megan reconciled and are now back together. It’s been the peak of my day knowing they were able to sort they’re out without me being involved. I am truly happy for them.
Unfortunately, the pit of my day is maybe losing my best friend. She has changed, in a bad way and everything she does simply annoys me. It is like she is competing with another...
FML .. Seriously!
I am now a relationship-wrecker!
Amy and Megan broke for good. Apparently they broke up cause Megan complained about some things and Amy didn’t take it well. Like what the fuck?!! I try keeping a distance from BOTH of them and yet I’m the one to cause this stupid break up. There is no point in saying sorry, both are too stubborn to admit that I didn’t do anything when I did!
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July 2011
6 posts
About me.
I have a problem where I fall too hard on a girl, which is why I can never maintain a stable relationship. There is a new girl now and I’ve made it a plan to not fall hard for her as well, though right now, there are no feelings insisting I do. I could need time? But would this new girl wait for me? Would she meet me half-way? Girls are difficult, which makes them irresistible.
Melodramatic Tendences
I need to vent about two girls - Amy and Megan. I use to like Megan and told Amy about. What I didn’t know is that both Amy and Megan were going out. Throughout the two-three months Amy kept insisting that there was “actually” something there? She made me even ask Megan to my school ball.
The Saturday that just passed, I received a txt from Megan:
Megan: I just needed to make...
Do I Really Care?
I went on a road trip today, and I recently discovered that the girl I use to like has fallen for the girl I like right now. On the ride back home suicidal thoughts ran through my mind. I told them I don’t mind if they go out, but deep down I do. I stage a smile so no one questions. I hide my emotions so no one can see that I’m easy to break. It’s time to go back to the only...
Reality < Expectations.
I had a dream that I was running away. My bag was packed and sat by the front door. I was writing a goodbye note, and before I left I took everything in one last time. But didn’t make it out. Instead a man in a dark hood held a gun directly at me, pointed at my head. He cocked his head and smiled, gingerly looking me up and down. My first plan was to call for help, shove past him. But I...
Girls Fall like Dominoes.
The ball was surprisingly fun. To see everyone all dolled up and looking like they actually owned a million dollars was priceless. But she was on my mind, though I tried not to think of her she was there, in my subconscious. She wasn’t the only one though, other girls I’m fond of were in my mind as well. How could I mentally phantom who I really want? Throughout the WHOLE night I...
The Time of My Life?
I recently discovered that the girl I’m absolutely hooked on has a girlfriend. Yes, I’m bummed. And of course I’m jealous that someone else gets to have her. I just thought that maybe, for once, there was actually somebody who gave an ultimate fuck about me. I’m always gonna have a soft spot for the girl, that feeling is always going to be there. All I can do is wait,...